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How Far is it to Heaven ?

Tuesday, October 5th, 2010

How far is it to heaven? I don’t know for sure, but I got quite a bit closer today.

It’s quite ironic actually that most of the people I have met here in the Philippines believe that we Americans live in heaven. A man told us that he had visited our country regularly….in his dreams.

We were invited by one of our employees, Roy, to speak at a new church he was helping start. So Sunday morning we set out to church. Wow. This was my first trip into the barrios of Davao City. The living conditions I witnessed are beyond description. We were carried down a narrow alley with shanties and houses so close that the little taxi barely fit. Children and adults stopped to stare into the can as it was obvious we were not one of the locals. When we finally reached the end of the road and the little community that was established there. I was rushed with so many thoughts and emotions. I truthfully struggled to act without reaction.

Roy began to introduce us and much to my delight, it was the curiosity of the children that began to break the ice. Most of them had never seen an American. They had never had their pictures taken much less look into the little screen and see themselves. I was mauled by children wanting to have their pictures taken so they could look at themselves.

As we began to worship with these wonderful people, I was amazed at their sincerity. They welcomed the two Americans , the two Reverends. ( Dennis is a real Reverend. I am simply a follower of Jesus and a student of the Word) The children would reach out for our hands and bow to touch their foreheads to the back of our hands. This is a sign of respect and honor given to a Priest. They were seeking a blessing from a messenger of God. These two strangers who came to visit were being treated with the highest honor they could give.

They asked Dennis what he thought would make a good name for their new church. We had learned that there were many religious sections of people there. Baptists, Methodists, Catholic and others to be sure. But they came together and sought our prayers and our blessings as two people who had come all the way from heaven to visit and worship with them. Dennis suggested ” United Church” as they were truly united. Not the United Methodists, or the United Presbyterians or the United Church of God, but just the United Church. People who are United together to worship and serve the or Lord.

We sang and prayed, reading ( or trying to read) new words hand written on yellow poster paper that was pinned to bamboo poles. I was awed at the vigor and honesty of their praise. They didn’t know the words and they didn’t know much scripture. The elders back at the 92nd Baptist church would have been appalled that one of the verses in the song was written ” all hell King Jesus” instead of ” All Hail”, but I am sure that Jesus smiled and knew exactly what they meant. The band was a beat up guitar and the the microphone crackled and strained to raise the level of their leaders voices to not much more than a good holler. They didn’t care, they sang!

And when they sang, oh what praise was lifted to the Heavens ! When Pastor Nick prayed, He moved me to tears. I couldn’t understand a word he said. He was probably praying in a Tagalog, their native language. Maybe he was praying in the spirit. I don’t know for sure but I can guarantee you that God heard and God understood. I also guarantee you that God acted acted. I saw it. I felt it. I was a part of it.

These people were reaching to God with everything they had. They were searching for any and every sign that a better life was in front of them. They clapped and cheered and yelled at the top of their voices at the mention of heaven or of Jesus.

There are no cafeterias or Outback Steakhouse’s to go to after service , so no need to rush the worship to beat the crowd. No one sat in the crowd boo hooing the big screens’ casting an image of the Pastor as showboat Christianity. No big hats, shiny shoes , fancy ties or laughing at the person beside them for messing up the words to Amazing Grace. There was just sincere praise, sincere longing and a sincere desire to know the Heart of God. I have never seen such hope , such desire, such praise. I will never worship the Lord the same again.

This is not a criticism or critique of the American church. This is a sharing of the difference in a people with little material or earthly possessions and a people with everything. These people believe that two American reverends had indeed come from Heaven to help them learn how to build a church. I now recognize all I take for granted. I recognize how the many blessings I have can distract me from praising God like I should.

No doubt that this American “reverend” , learned much more than he imparted. I am changed by the heart of worship. I have been closer to heaven. Half way around the world and a LOT closer to heaven.

This is scary….

Saturday, April 17th, 2010

My mentor and business partner likes to say, ” This is scary… kind of like riding a roller coaster let’s do it again scary ! ”   I have done some scary things before believe me.

I have done stupid scary like , ” That was stupid, thank God we are alive !”   I’ve done exciting scary like ” lets do that again ! ”   I’ve done accident type scary like ” can you believe we just did a 360 in the middle of the wet road in front of a Mack Truck !” Most of my “scaries” have been just me alone or with some other just as scared but willing participant. Now I have a different kind of scary.

I work with Blueagle Marketing, a start up company. It was scary when I quit my very nice salaried job 2 weeks before Christmas to fully commit. It was scary selling our first multi billion dollar company our services like it was something we did every day.

Now it is really scary bringing people on board our team. These are people who have families with responsibilities. It is scary that these people have hopes and dreams and goals that are now a part of my life, my business and my dreams. This could be lots of pressure like scary! And sometimes I get really pressure kind of scary like I am up at 2 a.m. pressure kind of cant sleep scary !

But you know what? I’m not really scared. Oh maybe a little ” that was scary lets ride it again !” kind of scared. But not fear scared and I will tell you why.

Ephesians 2:10 says, “For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them.”  One of the many cool parts of this verse is  ”which God prepared for us beforehand so that we could walk in them.”  To quote Mark Batterson just today in his blog , ” God is setting us up.”  Mark goes on to say  that this  ” … fills me with holy anticipation. It gives me an unshakable sense of destiny. If we simply stay in tune with what the Holy Spirit is saying and doing we will walk into situations that God has divinely orchestrated for us. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe in providence. God is in the business of making sure we’re in the right place at the right time. There are divine appointments that God is already setting up for next day delivery!”

If God is setting me up, then He is setting the people He is bringing onto our team up too. It is my responsibility not to be scared, but to lead.  I lead best by following my mentor and by following Him. He is setting us up !

John Ortberg wrote a book , ” If you want to walk on the water, you’ve got to get out of the boat”  I may not be walking on the water , but I for sure am  going to do my best not to take my eyes of of Him !  Scary good … scary exciting…  I never knew following God could be soo exciting !

I have been set up ! No need to be scared, just get on out of the boat and let’s go !

God is never early and He is never late!

Tuesday, March 30th, 2010

I am so thankful that God’s attention span is so much longer than mine! There is never one second in a day that He does not think of me.

Sitting down to spend time with Him today , I see that it has been several days since my last journal entry.  Not that He and I haven’t  talked and hung out a bit over the last few days. It’s just that I have not really been still and given Him my full attention. I am glad He is so understanding.

When I do take time to listen, He does offer me some good thoughts. For example this morning , as I realized that I have missed some time with Him, I also realized that I haven’t missed much time on my Facebook page!  I do so enjoy seeing and communicating with people  both from the now and from the past. I catch up and keep up with kids, jobs, jokes and the like. I watch as my friends  go through so many trials , tests and triumphs. The stages of life are played out before me every day. Just this week, I have shared life , death and most everything in between.

There are people who are celebrating victories, new assignments, and exciting times of adventure. There are those that are wandering around in a daze of doubt , fear and uncertainty. I see hurting people who are dealing with life and death often very suddenly and unexpected. Life is happening all around me and I have the blessing of sharing it with those who for one reason or another over the years I have a connection with.

I am amazed at the strength we as a people show. At the same time, I am amazed at how much we take for granted!  Then it occurs to me that we are all at one time strong , another time weak, another time selfish and another time selfless.

Then God brings me back to Him and His part in all of this. How He is everything that we are. He is strong. He is loving. He is caring. He is faithful. He is merciful. He is forgiving. He is always with us.  At the same time, He is also everything that we are not. He is never weak. He is never selfish. He is never jealous. He is never lost. He is never prideful. He is never surprised. He is never out of focus. He is never in a hurry. He never goes one minute without loving each and every one of us. Wow , He is good !

King Solomon wrote in Ecclesiastes 3 , and yes The Byrds sang, ” There is a season…” .  It is for us to love support and help each other through each season. We are to celebrate with the victories and support through the tears.  As He is with us every minute, we ought to be with those around us through every season.For those of you experiencing victory right now ,I  rejoice and celebrate with you !  For those of you whose are hurting, you are in my prayers and I cry with you.

God wants you to know today that no matter where you are , stand strong , be still and know that He is God!  He is a God that is never early and never late. He is always thinking of you and He is always right on time!